This is less than 24 hours after my last hit I’m 18 Weigh between 215-220 smoked a gram of meth pure stuff like my step dad gets same strength slightly different smell but still meth smell, i binged it all in 6 days I have extreme hypertension and my heart rate is threw the roof occasionally cold sweats, I’ve been popping rc benzos like candy along with doxepin one at night 6mg, but I need the doxepin and still have a decent stash of trazadone I also have Zoloft, Prozac, buspar and script klonopin I’d rather not take, I also have alcohol and kratom but I just got off Kratom and opiate addiction runs in my family unlike meth meth always makes me hate it i shoulda got a better drug, but it was only 20 a gram of shit just like my step dads I learned my lesson I wanna know what’s the best combo for fast sucide because even if this episode ends I’ll be sad cuz well my ex broke up with me the only person keeping me sane and actually happy without drugs I could taper and feel like shi but if she was with me that’s all that mattered I got clean from kratom because of her and was heavily tapering off the benzos when I was with her. I just took 3 full bromazolam bars 4mg each an hour ago it’s barely doing anything I need more, I’ve also lost family and family pets maybe if I kill her with me we can be together in the afterlife

Also am drifting away from my closest friends I wanna kill someone

Can someone please give me some advice I wanna go to hospital but would rather die then out myself like that I need to off myself before I hurt anyone what’s the fastest way to od rn and not potentially surviving at all with no pain or puking