I’m in the midst of the worst ride I’ve ever been on. My mind keeps telling me I’m not real. I’ve been dealing with constant tingling in my face, arms, shoulders, and legs for most of the day, with muscle pains showing up from time to time. That’s all likely related to being super dehydrated. My mental state is playing around in the pits hell. I thought I was going to be unalived yesterday. I was torn down and incessantly verbal attacked for almost an entire day by someone that claims to love me.

But no, I’m not actually contemplating offing myself atm or anything.

I gotta really be done with this shit or it’s gonna send me to the grave.

If you’re reading this maybe share something funny or interesting or anything you want that’s not related to this gd substance. I have to try to clear my head somehow. 😥