Do you very much despise the meffed up version of your significant other?

The high experience has improved for me on a personal level the last few times, but fuck my partner morphs into a complete POS every damn time he’s spun. He becomes fully incapable of hearing a word I say and it’s not as if I’m incessantly nagging at him or being a cunt towards him or displaying even mild behaviors that could warrant the disregard of me as a person that’s existing alongside him. I mean he will totally forget I even exist for HOURS, sometimes extending into days. I continually express in all sorts of ways that it’s mega hurtful for me and sometimes even fucks with my high pretty bad. All of those talks have been when he’s sober and when he’s high, so there’s no space for the “I was fucked up when you said that and don’t remember” excuse for the behaviors continuing. And for real, this has been my experience with him every time I’ve been around him on meth, regardless of if I am sober or not.

Does anyone else have a similar experience, more specifically other committed couples that aren’t mainly using to increase their sexcapade adventures? The couples that get spun and will go sweep the entire house or watching a TV show for 16 hours straight? The full on life partners, that also partake together?

And if you read this far but you don’t have a partner you use with, feel free to just chat with me a bit about whatever you want. I’m trying to shift my brain out of the shitty feels I’m in. I think I’ll get me another few spins rolling, so I can travel on down the road of forgetting all the frustrating BS for a bit… 🌬️

ETA: and this shift he has is exclusive to when he’s high. He is nothing like this when sober. He’s told me a few stories about when his friends and such that have used with him often complain about how he is while tweaked. So, he fully aware that it’s a legit issue (and not just me being overly sensitive) that he should consider making some attempt to shift the vibe, but not a single thing has shifted over several months from my perspective.