I’ve been patient, calm, and respectful to my partner while she bashes me about my problem with dope. I relapsed recently and I’m not happy about it, it doesn’t make it any better dealing with other personal matters, and a narcissist, pathological liar in my face! I’d be considered bad for what’s happened in my life and the choices I’ve made but her? Just pure evil man. There’s a difference between those two. For someone to have pure joy and excitement to see what they caused in someone else is comforting? Is a psycho. I’ve reached the numbness mentally and spiritually, knowing what life has thrown at me while surviving the worse is the best accomplishment I have achieved on growing and developing. thank you.