So i just noticed a certain stage that I cross in to the longer i a m without sleep... For reference, I have experienced drug/lack of sleep - induced psychosis. The biggest/longest episode happened after leaving a rehab in berkely , ca and spent the next 24-36 hours WALKING everywhere and nowhere high on meth but still very new to it.....I won't get in to detail but imagine basically no money to eat, restr. no friends and family near but you DO HEAR them quietly following you around all night. hearing your mom an sister begging you to go to the hospital. You hear your ex with others dudes in the cars that drive by....It doesnt make sense yet it makes sense...........scrambled i mean rambled....sorry....my main question/discovery is : the longer i am up(high my pet cat starts to give off vibes that shes conscious and sometimes even though not talking (bc she is a cat) I can sense that she is always patiently laying next to me while i spend all night spun out and i get the feeling shes waiting for me to stop for a few min so i can spend time with her...I dont know the exact moment but after a certain time frame I feel a whole new prescience bout thecat....i'veevn slipped up and sometimes finished a thought out loud to her which then makes me realize iI do need sleep etc......but then until i pass out i sense that i am being watched (in a non malicious way) and the nonstop chattter is full blast in my mind right now....harriot the spy iis on tv and i decided to relive childhood movie....but between being paranoid of being too loud with tv in my apartment I end up not heating any of the movie but the chatter in my mind is lip syncing for me....and non of its right....goddamn. june 3 i am starting school again....lol. 35 yo veteran trying school. im bound to get it right if i keep trying to NOT smoke...but i ddott June a whole new dumpster fire to promote another night tho....got some fetty w me 2.....after this is published i WILL sleep tonight..5 days s is way too many.....interesting to experience the change in everything mentally though...alright ........

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