Firstly want to say I'm not panicking I'm still calm.

So I usually smoke it. I've only snorted a handful or so times. I usually put between 50-100mg at most in a bowl. 100mg or so only put in a bowl no more than 10 or so times id say. (I do track all my use/amounts/pics/time I take some etc)

Only times i use and finish the full bowl is with alot less than 50mg or so probably around 30mg or close. Bowls with more than 50mg-100mg or so take me up to 8-10 hours to finish.

Soooo with all that said. I measured a amount that read as 150mg. Now bare in mind max I've ever snorted would be like at max like 50mg which I obviously would dose in one line. I do still want to get and stay clean and already decided the day before partner picked this stuff up I'm attempting to get and then stay clean for my third attempt.

I have never experienced any high that many others seem to get. Even other adhd users gey effects I cannot the main ones being any rush and unquestionable euphoria. Sooo I thought fuck it why not just dose the biggest amount I've ever done via snorting so it's in one go. I struggle to keep hitting the pipe so I'd not be able smoke even close to that kinda dose in one go or as quick as I can anyway.

Sooo I snorted the line in 2 sniffs with like 10 seconds in between each. Sooo now I definitely did feel something I've never felt and can only describe it as what I'd call some form of rush but not exactly pleasant. I also felt quite sick which mostly went away after 5 or so mins.

I did this dose a hour ago. And after 20 min or so after I did it I moved my body and I felt weird like only way i can come close to how it felt was many years ago like 19 years ago and I got absolutely high as fuck on the resin weed that ain't around anymore. (Green does fuck all for me)

I felt kinda dizzyish I'm sat down and not feeling any of how I was before. But!! Still no noticeable euphoria or change in mood. Woke up alot more I'd say that's it. When I spoke to partner half hour ago i thought I sounded odd but he said I sound like I do normally (including sober) just my mental self which is ya know the norm haha.

I'm worried because I'm attending a event tonight which is actually a fucking ADHD event hahahaha. I will be leaving to go to the city its happening in like 5 hours. I got shit I need to get done. Am I gonna be OK lmao. I ain't gonna die or anything right? Although that would actually solve dealing with the major life I've been suffering for 17 months when I was introduced to this fucking drug. Soo yeah ha. But nah universe may be against me but it also wants me alive anyway so I keep suffering so I doubt death gonna be happening ha.

As you can tell though I am seriously fucking mentally fucked up but I always have been meth just made me now be mentally fucked up and a meth addict making stupid, long ass posts like this that no one will either read or make sense of. But it's all good. We all here mostly I'd say because of our meth use and believe it or not I'm pretty much like this when sober too except I ain't got the concentration or nowhere near the ability to keep my focus doing this shit for however long it takes. Haha

P.s if you somehow read it to the bottom post a black heart for me haha. Put this here to test ya!! OK I'm going I'm not normal I do think this dose is effecting me in a way that hasn't happened or at least been anywhere as intense as it is doing now.

Well that's all. Good luck reading this shit as even meth me wouldn't read all this and if I did manage it won't have been easy lol. Byeeeeee. Read above this..

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