I am a 25 year old male, that is still in school and that still lives at home with his old strict parents and brother. No one knows that I smoke meth, since I keep it a secret. I have a terrible history with meth and recovered from it.

🍀 I enforced some restrictions in my routines which helps me not exceed the average use. My restrictions are like:

🔅 If I smoked today, I won't smoke tomorrow and 2 more days after. Even if I can.

🔅Meth is packed in small plastic straws or packed in small plastic bags that are transparent and sealable. Usually I don't go beyond 2 meth straws as 3 feels too much for me and this may raise suspicion and distract me in doing the necessary things.

🔅 Whenever I have my 2 straws and start smoking. I never smoke all the way to the end. I pour a fair amount of meth into my meth pipe. Then prepare it, afterwards get and blow some clouds once, or twice or 3 times then leave it there and go work on my school work, projects or self-teach myself a valuable skill. I think doing this helps somewhere.

🔅 I always have supper at night with meat. Most times have leftovers from last night as my breakfast or lunch.

I have been keeping a close eye on my appearance and body weight. I am quite sure you all know how difficult is that. However I picked up some slight changes in my appearance of the face and weight.

I then realized that this changes to normal and changes back to the different repeatedly. Sometimes feels as if am gaining a little bit of weight during my use and I wonder how.

May someone please share the knowledge and make this understandable for me. How am I still looking fine and no one has seen weight loss

Thank you for your precious time, and energy you gave in to me. Might seem little to you but remember that big things are made up of the small things gathered collectively. Thank you again for your feedback.