Over the last few months, I have been experimenting with a few drugs (the popular classics) that I have never taken before. I thought yolo and just wanted to try stuff out just the one time.

Anyway, since taking Meth (I boof shards only) about a month ago, I eventually learned you can jack off for many hours straight after my 3rd time taking it. - I have since been doing it every 2-3 days and all I can think about is jacking off whilst Methed up.

On Friday, as soon as I finished work at 5pm (I WFH), I ended up boofing a shard and BOOM, 30mins later I started my stimfapping sessions just lying on my bed using my phone for 'content' searching my fav tags...

From 6pm Friday, until 9am Monday (today), I ended up stimfapping over 5 times, for a total of over 30 hours. I redosed a few times and probably had around 0.3g in total.

THE AFTERMATH

1.) My dick is destroyed; the head is cracked and raw (very painful, I'm cut), my banjostring is inflamed by about 400%, the top of my balls (just under the shaft) is inflamed and has cracked skin coming off.

2.) My apartment is covered in Olive Oil. No joke, I had no lube in so thought I'd give Olive Oil a go and oh boy, it works but it has its draw backs. I was so focused on stimfapping, I was in like a crazed manic state that I didn't give a fuck about anything else... in the end, I pretty much covered my entire bed in around 300ml of Olive Oil. There is Olive Oil on my home clothes, all door handles, my phone, computer etc. - the whole apartment and me reeks of Olive Oil now.

3.) I was in such a manic state of wanting to stimfapp, I disregarded everything else. Dishes not done for almost a week, trash not taken out, didn't log on my work PC to work overtime at the weekend.

4.) I was searching 'crazy' stuff online to get off too when in manic mode. To make it worse, at my Monday lunch at home during worktime, I used that time to redose and stimfapp again for another 2 hours, when I was supposed to be working. - I even ended up looking at some questionable stuff on my work laptop as my phone was charging.

5.) ... I loved it so much, I want to do it again next weekend. However, I am aware that I am now likely becoming addicted.

Is it possible to become addicted just because of the stimfapping element like me?