Literally first day sober teeth stopped hurting. They look healthy...my face is filled out and my ribs are not protruding. I get little joy from life but some here and there like my mom saying she's proud. More will come.

17 days clean again for the 20th time

Hey it's gotta stick sometime. Maybe I can be content without chaos. Who knows, but I'm tired man. Tired of constant jerking off and driving around for spots to jerk off in my car for months living in it. I sold my car. Got motel for a week jerked away some more then lived in a baseball field dugout at a little league park for 3 days in the rain while I hustled dating site for meth and ghb. I let a dude jerk off next to me. I felt sick but I needed it man I needed dopamine.

I've used hardcore drugs iv heroin and meth and also constantly. With clean time here and there for 12 years. Hepc twice and every county in southern California I spent time In jail plus Hawaii. Homeless many times. So alone for so long. I'm 36 with nothing, but I got some clean time again so there's a chance

Anyways fuck you meth.