(I'm not a native speaker so sorry for the typos or nonsense sentences)

Keep in mind: • Third time taking acid: first time felt nothing, second time was at the theater and drank 2 bottles of wine, ate two big boxes of popcorn and vomited in the streets and my friends had to drag my barely working body to my house, third time, this festival. • I'm currently an almost exclusively meth user, 1 g can last me 4 weeks and lately I've been buying at least once a week. Used to limit consumption but my current life situation makes sobriety unbearable. • I don't like weed, at all. I always prefer sintetic uppers/estimulants. I took it this time because assumed any effects would wear off with the meth. (I'm. not the brightest drug addict). • Did not take any molly at the festival, just half a poll the day before (Friday 11pm). • To help with sleep, I take one Clonazepam pill of 2mg, this weekend I took one on Friday-Saturday and one Saturday-Sunday.

Context: I went to Ceremonia, a festival in mexico city to see Kendrick Lamar. I already had tickets for Saturday and Sunday. The plan was to take my brother to the festival to see Kendrick (Saturday).

Timeline: Friday: Everything was ok, I took half a molly pill because I went raving (took the half pill and microdosed meth (snorting) during the night). Btw, I microdosed meth everyday the week before. Always snorted. Came home at 5 am and took one Clonazepam of 2mg to help sleep. P.S. I vaped the whole evening.

Saturday: Woke up at 11, prepped for the day and took a line (meth). When we got to the festival took another line, all good til that point. Later ran into a friend and she gave me an edible. I gave my brother less than a quarter to avoid him having a bad trip. During the Yves Tumor set I took a quarter of an acid (idk the name in English but it's basically a "cuadro de ácido", chatgpt said it's called blotter). After that I drank vodka (that my friend smuggled into the festival) with soda, medium cup size). Now, during the Kendrick Lamar set I felt super high, wanted to put the blame onto the group of guys smoking weed next to me because I'm not experienced on this whole combining drugs thing. So after Kendrick, I had trouble walking straight, felt more drunk and high than anything else. Super dry mouth, breathing hurt both my nose and my throat (I didn't smoke or vaped at the festival). I had to grab onto my brother which was super embarrassing and depressing. He did not know about my addictions. Well, I told him about weed, molly and LSD. While walking to the scenerario where Charlotte de Witte was playing I went to the bathroom to do a final line of meth but ISTG, it burned horribly. Did not gave me the upper I was expecting, instead it felt like my brain was turning into mush. Finally, at the Charlotte set, I took another quarter of acid and that was it. I felt like a living corpse, I was functional but a little loopy because we were able to walk away of festival traffic and order an Uber a couple blocks away.

Sunday: My mom was supposed to come by my apartment to pick up my brother. I could barely walk, so I pretended to be asleep or just tired, couldn't even look them in the eyes after they left and literally didn't know how long they stayed. The plan was to take another line to resucitate but I was afraid that might kill me or something. The most disappointing part for me was not even being able to pick up my phone and sell the ticket or at least give it away. I blacked out since Sunday at like 3 pm to Monday at like 6 pm.

Monday: Still in bed, already took 3 lines of meth and nothing. Tuesday: Uneventful, I took vacations at work but I have to come back on Wednesday. Will try to be productive and forget about this whole thing.

Conclusion: I don't know if I'm ready to accept this was rock bottom, I intend to not use LSD or weed ever again, did not like the experience at all. However, molly and meth never do me like that. And I know this is all junkie talk but, guess I'm not ready to grow.

TL;DR I [M26] took meth and molly at a rave the day before a festival, at the festival I took meth, weed and LSD with my brother (he just took quarter of an edible). So I blacked out from Sunday to Monday and couldn't even sell or gift my second day ticket.