My next post in the series. I did one a few weeks ago on LSD. Just click on my profile and find the post if you want to read it.

In summary, I bought a bunch of drugs of the deepweb to try for the first time, as I had some spare funds in a crypto wallet that I got back. (Stop/do not message me about this - I will ignore you.)

I bought 25x LSD tabs, 14.0g of MDMA and 2.0g of Crystal Meth.

Yes, this may sound a little crazy, but my life logic really is just to try some stuff once for the experience! If you met me IRL, I work a good office job and would never expect it. - Nothing that involves needles though or any sort of opioid.

HOW IT WENT

TIME TAKEN: 3pm

TIME EFFECT FIRST FELT: 3:40pm

TIME EFFECT FELT PEAK: 7pm

TIME EFFECT FELT OVER: 5am

DOSAGE: Around 50mg of normal clear Meth on DAY 1, then around 50mg 25mg on DAY 2.

ADMINISTERED: After research, I boofed it as the other methods didn't appear too appetizing and apparently it was meant to be one of the safest ways to do it. So, just put a pea amount of lube around my arse and shoved the small piece in. (Sorry if too graphic, lol). - I did shower and use the showerhead before hand to make sure I would be clean. I also took an Aspirin tablet before to avoid any blood pressure issues / paranoia about it.

EFFECTS FELT IN ORDER OF OCCURRENCE:

-Euphoria // I am not exaggerating, but I did feel like on top of the world and I would be lying if it didn't feel like one of the best experiences I've ever felt. Just very very happy and clearly was on Dopamine overload. I wouldn't say I felt 'high' and I could still function normally. It made me very very very chatty / social (which I am not - Mega introvert). I would sort of describe the sensation very similar to Cocaine (only tried twice before), but you feel the Dopamine rush way more in my opinion. The sensation also lasted for a very long time.

-Dilated pupils. // Even more so than the LSD, they were fucking huge after around 4 hours.

-Lack of appetite. // I just didn't feel like eating at all. Here is when things went downhill, as the following day, I took another dose. In the end, I ended up going 3 days without eating; on the third day, I did order a full Chinese to try and make me hungry, but only had about 20% of it, which was at most around 300 calories. I did ensure I drank lots of water each day though.

ACTIVITIES DID: Messaging an old girl I had feelings for the whole time and contacting old friends. I did not plan to do this, but the drug just made me feel like I could say/do anything. Reading back the texts, it did certainly awaken me somewhat and I definitely became a 'levelled up' version, but the very act of messaging/calling old friends/girls was just not a good idea when 'high'. I was also posting on Reddit loads of love/advice posts 🤦

COME DOWN: As I said, the first time I did it on the Friday, it felt great and the come down was just a couple of the below but on a minor level. The BIG mistake I made was doing more the next day.

-Heart-Fluttering. // So on DAY 2 when lying in bed all day (for 12 hours) but awake on my phone, my heart just kept fluttering. It was not a good feeling.

-Paranoia. // Due to the above, I did become quite paranoid in respect of my health. Deep down, I knew I would be alright and another Reddit User (Shoutout u/LegendaryPooper) did message me a few times which helped as I didn't tell anyone else IRL that I had taken it.

-Twitching. // For the life of me, I could not sit/lie still. Every 20 seconds or so, I would twitch which made it very difficult to get to sleep. I ended up going to work on the Monday with having had only 3 hours of shit sleep.

-Sadness & Suicidal. // So about 2-3 days after taking the second dose on the Saturday, I just generally felt melancholic. I think this might have been a combination though of all of the 'old girl' drama (as the hours of messages brought up a load of old stuff, I would have never told anyone) and the come down itself from the drug. It did make me feel hopeless and whilst I would never actually kms, it did make me feel like it was the best option.

WOULD I TAKE AGAIN: Yes... but only once/twice a year or for a treat or an occasion.

WHAT WOULD I DO DIFFERENTLY: (Note to self: DO-NOT-MESSAGE OLD ACQUAINTANCES/FRIENDS/GIRLS!!!) Lol, on a serious note, taking 2 days in a row (especially as a first time user) was very very stupid. Doing it ruined my experience for sure. I could have also been a little more accurate with the dose, which I won't discuss due to this subs rules. (I will buy a proper scale next time.)

RATING: 6/10 (This is based on both days and the come down. If I just counted DAY 1 alone, then would be 9/10.)

CONCLUSION

I can 100% see how people get hooked to it. Imagine being a shy/quiet introvert, to suddenly being able to talk to anyone in a coherent and lengthy manner without nerves. Definitely an euphoria overload, but a different sort of euphoria you would get from say opioids.

The 'positives' are equally matched by the negatives though in terms of weighting. - Definitely a shit come down experience if you do too much. I'm surprised it didn't interfere with my work for the first few days. It definitely has the potential to ruin lives.

One thing I would note is that I wasn't horny on it. - Peeps say it makes them jerk off for hours, but for the whole 3 days I just did not feel like it for some reason, despite having the love bug at the time! Strange.

I now just have around 3 doses left, which I am saving for a treat. I will not be buying it again once I run out.

I am intrigued to see what it would be like though on a night-out/partying whilst drinking? - Obviously, one of the main benefits I had was being social, so I am tempted to try it out next month for a friends party in the city. I can be quiet at social gatherings. What do you think? Is it safe to have with alcohol?