day 238: supplies running low, down to a days rations remaining.

but seriously, imma bout to be out, and maybe someone can explain this to me, i knew i was running out for a while - yet held off trying to get more - like subconsciously i know i really am just hurting myself in the long run. But at the same time when cutting back these last few days ive been having this overwhelming feeling of gloom, fear, uncertainty. I hope i can find somebody, problem is i tend to stock up when i do, and go a really long time totally disconnected from the "culture", more often than not the person i hit up last time is gone so i got to find a new plug, and as yall know 75% of these mugs want to rip you off, the other wants to have sex with you lol.

i guess if anything im a functioning addict. Not sure if i can handle the w/d's, at a semi fragile point mentally right now and this slowly dying light is killing me!