Women any of you wandered about this as well?

First of all I believe I should start out like this...my question is not a joke. I really would like to know what's up with this. I am not knocking what anyone chooses to do and I will provide a little background...

The guy who gave me my first shot of meth and who I went down a very dark road with due to our addiction was always trying to shove shit in my Hoo Ha. Like the normal shit I assume like cucumbers. Then it went to like weird or crazy shit like a tube of lip gloss or his whole fist. The worst part is there were times that things took place I didn't not even fucking remember. He is like telling me the story a couple days/week later telling me what he did like happy and shit. I'm left feeling sick and in shock. Then I come to my senses and flip the fuck out. Like this really makes me feel like my friend is a sicko or something. I still resent him for what I know and what I do not know.

Can anyone share with me their experience with this? Does the roa affect this? Why does this happen to men on meth? Any females been in my position..feel betrayed or been asked about doing some of the crazy shit I mentioned??

Thank you in advance for sharing and stopping by. F/41