Honestly world,

I feel so disconnected right now. I feel so alone, and isolated based on my current situation. I just want to visit people again. To hug people again. To do something other than sit and rot in my own damn mind. But yet I'm at a point where it takes all the energy I have to leave the house. I literally feel like I'm losing myself from everything that is happening. I can barely find joy in anything anymore. Even music, my largest passion, is slowly losing its touch over time. Music just doesn't lift me as much (if it does). Having a garden did wonders until all my plants died.

I don't get what the heck is wrong with me. And it is so frustrating, because I want to heal, but I don't know what to do. I don't even have the energy to reach out to the services to get help. It's so frustrating and overwhelming for me. Sometimes I just wish I could find a new friend in this chaotic world, and just discuss whatever with, you know?

I just want to be hugged, and not feel like I'm the only one in this damn bubble. It also doesn't help that all my local friends are being really distant with me, here in Victoria, BC (Canada).

I get it, though. It genuinely feels like I'm a burden to others with several of my struggles. Especially as my burdens worsen, and my mind grows more foggy with each passing week.

I feel so trapped at my new living situation, after moving 4 times in the last year, trying to find my place. I'm struggling again in my living situation. And honestly I'm scared of what will happen, because everything is so uncertain right now.

I know supportive housing is something I need to overcome my struggles. I just wish it was more accessible.

I know this is a lot, but oh well. Thank you for reading.

If anyone actually wants to talk, maybe? I'd like that! It makes the world feel a bit more bearable :)! My DMs are always open!