I had a close friend of mine , who is my boyfriend best friend not wanting to be around me due to my mental health. E my close friend has ghosted me for about a month or two. She has been telling my boyfriend about how she doesn't want to be around me or that I'm annoying or nasty but never anything straight up to me . I asked her could she be honest with me and she told me " I straight up really just don't wanna deal with your energy rn. Sorry to be mean but I legit do not like you. You keep asking me to tell you straight up so I am. You're just horrible to be around. Your energy is so sad and insecure and it radiates onto others". As well as " I feel pity for you which is why I guess I let you be around but it's gotten too annoying. I dislike your company. Sorry if this makes you sad but you asked for it 🤷‍♀️" . I told her it's ok ( even though I'm dying inside) and that she drains me out too with how rude and angry she gets at ppl . And she just said ily hopefully we can be friends again. I can't really go to be with her even if my bf is over. And they both have been childhood friends. I can't even hang out with her sister. I'm thinking about breaking up or asking my bf for a break . I hate how E is super popular on instagram and social media being the artist I wanted to be until my depression. Also she's very intelligent and beautiful. I just wish I wasn't a burden in all my relationship even family .