Here’s something I discovered when trying to pull my self together, I will fall down again but thinking this way will put me back up.

During the past few months I was either very optimistic or heavily depressed due to a variety of factors. At times I would be too optimistic where I would end up being heavily depressed because it felt so artificial being that happy.

Then there was this one day, where I felt just stagnant. Just not too happy and not to depressed, I liked the feeling. I ranted about it to my friend and surprisingly there is an answer to what I’m feeling, Peace. In her way, it’s about trying to equalize all of your feelings you are feeling at the moment. It feels almost as zen because it feels like I’m not too happy( I want that) and I’m also not too depressed (I want that). In order words, if you feel meh like not to worried or energetic, it feels like that.

I’ve been trying to establish that practice whenever I get very bad anxiety shakes and thoughts where my mind is so clouded and wanted to die but during cool off periods, that is when I start to equalize my thoughts where I would have to think about it again but not now. I haven’t reached the level of being completely at peace but I know I’ll get there

It’s hard to explain this profound experience but I hope it encourages people to find peace within themselves and through out their day :)