I’m currently in a very chaotic living situation that is really stressful and aggravating in so many ways. It’s affecting my marriage in a very negative way and I’m really not using healthy coping skills (usually turning to alcohol, illicit substances and cutting- not in excess, btw) My mom is pretty aware of the issues and has her own after losing her husband 3 years ago. Yesterday I felt very guilted by her as she addressed that she hardly hears from me or her friends. It’s important to point out that she had a little falling out with one of her friends/ neighbors the same day. Anyways… she’s in pain from different things same as me. And she tells me “I’m tired. I don’t want to be here anymore. I’ll let you know before I go and I promise not to make messy.” 😣 😳 She explains that most likely she’d want to use pills to end herself. It’s a huge trigger for me and a super heavy weight to put on my mind. I’m I being selfish by feeling that this isn’t fair for her to say to me? Or is she really just being vulnerable and open, and the issue sounds more like I’m just dealing really badly to everything rn…? I just feel so overwhelmed and I’ve been fighting tears all night and day bc of it Btw: tomorrow is my daughter’s birthday and we’re having a party this coming weekend for context of timing in my life…