I’m not safe even though I feel like I’m safe sometimes. I am switching emotions like every two seconds. I am out of my mind. I feel like my brain is slowly rotting. I feel like no one is hearing me. I feel like I’m screaming but no sound is coming out. I feel so trapped. Please I need help and I feel like everyone is looking the other way.

I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. I am failing college, I have no friends, I am a bad person, I am fat, I’m ugly, and idk what I want to do as a career.

I feel just so messed up. I don’t know what to fucking do. I want to go to a hospital cause I need more help but whenever I try to tell my parents, they talk me out of it. They aren’t helping me. I want to scream so fucking loud.

I’m not going to kill myself or anything but I am so fucking done with life. I can’t keep living like this. I don’t know what to fucking do. I feel like I’m living in this cycle.

I wake up, smoke, eat, nap, walk, smoke, eat, smoke, sleep, and continue the whole thing again.

I know smoking that much everyday is bad but I don’t care. I just am so done. I don’t care what happens to me. I am just so fucking done.

Life just isn’t right for me. Why am I like this? Why can’t I be normal? Why am I mentally ill? Why can’t I be pretty? Why can’t I be smart? Why can’t I have friends? Why am I me?

I can’t take it anymore. I am too pussy to kill myswlf so don’t worry but I want to so bad. I’m just fucking done