My depression has been getting so much worse lately. All I can think about is how I don't want to be here anymore...I feel like life has no meaning. It's even hard to think. It is hard to stay focused. Im so exhausted all the time. What is there to look forward to? What is there to be happy about? Im alive but I am not living. Im trying hard yet feel so bad about myself. I don't want to exist like this. I dont want to exist with the constant reminder of how much this world sucks. It is all going hell. The world is going to hell and we are watching. There is nothing we can do. If I was not alive, none of this would exist. This world is bleak, it is dark and I want out. I just want to be happy, that is all I want.