my depression has been something that's lingered over me since I was about 13 [I'm 26]. I started self harming at 14. so it's been a tag along for awhile.

I have a narcisstic mother who gave me body image issues. had a ED under the age of 10. had to always dress girly and other image bs.

I have a nonemotional father. legit never received a hug from him. he later did apologize but now I have issues will men in general their emotions. beside anger. dad had a temper.

I was groomed molested thru teen years. Bad relationship after bad relationship.

in my search of understanding my diagnosis. I understand exactly where my depression, anxiety, dissociative disorder comes from. I'm way to self aware.

if i know the reasons why. why can't I get better. it's been over a decade.

depression go or let me go.