Help please - Advice needed!

I'm close to my wits' end

I have been trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with me for around 3 years now. I've went to several mental health professionals, although I'm not really very confident about the competency of those here in my country. Or at least of the ones I've encountered. It's tremendously difficult to find a good professional here. I feel like seeking help is now a gamble. Because I feel like I just keep getting misdiagnosed or something. Or like.. it's just not really working. It's extremely hard to find psychologists that are a good fit for me. I could try looking to other countries but it's so expensive and what if it doesn't work out as well? So far I have been diagnosed with Bipolar 2 with anxious distress. My psychiatrist also suspects that I may have Borderline Personality Disorder and along with that, I really dont wanna self diagnose but I resonate a lot with ADHD symptoms. It's hellish figuring out what to do. I know a lot of coping mechanisms. I know I should sleep and eat well and exercise and all that. I've tried learning about DBT and CBT as well. Several times I've tried "getting my shit together" on my own where I just... almost obsess over my routines and thinking patterns with the hopes of "fixing myself". But it truly is so nuanced. I hate it when people think it's simple because it really is the most complex thing ever. I could write about my "symptoms" and their complexities all day. I just don't know if I can do justice to them by in putting everything here right now.

What's worse is I've tried writing about it all and I was so satisfied with my list, but when i gave it to my MH professionals they seemingly barely batted an eye on what I wrote. And I'm pretty bad at conversing real time verbally. I dont know... i'm better at writing stuff but even then I tend to go on tangents. But at least im able to give data, there was a time where i could barely utter a word in my session even tho i have so much to say. I just went blank and felt so helpless, I still feel helplesss cause I dont know what to do.

I feel like there are a million things to consider, to think about, because it just feels really really complicated. Theres more stuff like the way I live and my environment and my life situations to consider. I might just go crazy trying to analyze everything with school on hand.

School. I want to stop and focus on my mental health, but my parents insist i might justget worse, and they may be partly right.

I think i have borderline because of my relationships. Theyre always intense.

Im just always so restless, agitated, lonely, anxious, confused.

Medication. Trying to find the right cocktail mix also feelsl ike a gamble. And I dont know who to believe, whether meds are vital for bipolar and whether cases could be fatal without meds.

And then theres the side effects. I dont know if some cognitive dysfunctions are symptoms or side effects or just normal shit.

I need so much help but I suppose only I can really help myself. I just need to figure things out. Something ive been doing endlessly

Lastly.... im starting to doubt whether a psychiatric approach to this is rlly the best one. Or whether approaching this in the lenses of mental disorders help, cause it just seems to drive me more insane.

But please help. Give me valuable insights.