I'm in my 20s and struggling heavily with undiagnosed mental illness along with currently being diagnosed with Severe Depression at the very least.

It has made adulting extremely hard with the only thing im good at it keeping a high GPA in college.

On top of my severe depression symptoms i struggle with others that point to me possibly having ADHD and being on the autism spectrum. These symptoms pop up more when in in social situations or when i try to gain an understanding of how adulting works.

With this in mind i have asked some family members for help in working towards getting into an environment where i can work on building myself up to being able to do more things on my own and be a bit more independent. Though in all honesty with how severe my symptoms are and how debilitating they can be i dont think i will be able to survive completely on my own, but i want to have some independence still.

About a year ago i was talking to my older siblings about possibly staying out where they are in another state and they offered it first because they were worried and wanted to help me so we agreed that i at least get a license before hand. Its now a year later and i believe that offer has changed due them expecting a baby soon but also i noticed their tone went from, " i can help you out" to " you gotta do this on your own and get your own place". And i understand its apart of adulting it just felt like maybe i shouldn't ask for help in those eras from them anymore because they are right.

I was considering going back to school in person for the last two terms im doing before graduating and asking a family member that stays in the town if i can stay in the extra apartment they had to safe some money but when i brought uo this plan with my sibling they said maybe i shouldn't since that maybe stressful for them and they are getting old and to consider the dorms. As much as i would love to go back to the dorms they are way more expensive then already expensive housing in that era. But my sibling said thats apart of adulting though.

Again i know they are right but i think why i find what they are telling difficult is because of my mental health symptoms. It makes it difficult for me to do almost everything and they are so debilitating and if i had a little support i feel like i could make it. But im thinking maybe since ive had some bad expisodes recently that everyone thinks i maybe alot to deal with and i try my best to not be a burden on others. But the message im getting is that i just need to do things alone and i dont like to be alone but i already am emotionally. It doesn't help that i have child like tendencies but overall i have accomplished many things like helping out with bills ans stuff.

I don't know i just feel abandoned because i thought i woukd be supported and now it feels that is non existent anymore. I could also be overacting but honestly Im just so confused by everything : (