Since late 2018/early 2019, I had secretly purchasing Onlyfans subscriptions and the occasional PPV. Originally, I only ever went on there to see one or two girls that seems hot and I wanted to see naked. However, it has gotten to the point that I find myself spending money semi regularly with almost no signs of stopping. Sure, the subscription purchases often tend to be small and nothing to egregious, but it eventually adds up. But, this most recent purchase is where I want to finally draw the line. I made a purchase from an account named @rachaelhelena who sent a ppv of her friends licking her tits. However, despite costing me $35 it only amount to not even a minute’s worth of content. And the content itself was unsatisfactory on top of that too. And the worst part is, I can’t even get a refund to remedy this because of OF’s stupid decision to make everything non-refundable. I hate it so much, but I keep finding myself caught in a constant cycle of making an enticing purchase, almost immediately regretting it, and deleting my debit card off of my account(s), only to add it back in again when something seems enticing enough. I can’t stand it anymore, but I’m afraid I won’t be able to stop. I have deleted my accounts so many times over the past year alone thinking I was finally done only to end up making new ones and continuing the cycle yet again. How do I stop myself for good? And more importantly, how I do it without anyone close to me finding out?