I work in a factory and I'm extremely slow and have learning difficulties so I'm not producing enough and I'm probably going to get fired. And if I get fired, I get kicked out from my house by my parents and I probably won't get any job at all because I have a record of getting fired for a reason no body would want to hire me for. I have severe paranoia and delusion severe OCD and extremely severe anxiety and I'm suicidal. If I get fired I really have absolutely no idea what to do. They're going to leave me at my birth mons house (these are my adoptive parents) so I'll have a place to stay but I'm not sure what to do from them. I also dont know if I'll live much longer because I planned to kms today. I'm not diagnosed with anything so its not like I can prove anything if I tell them. I'm crying right now and I feel like life is only unbearable pain that I can no longer get through. All my friends ignore me as well so I genuinely dont have anybody.