Recently got out of a break up… This girl means absolutely everything to me and then some. Like I really don’t know if I even wanna continue life without her here. She’s literally everything that I have ever prayed for. The night we broke up I had a seizure, now I don’t know what it was from but kinda weird it happened right after I got off the phone with her. I miss her so damn much she’s all that I think about and it doesn’t matter what I’m doing, she’s on my mind 25/8. I’ve tried talking to people, therapy, hobbies like sports, video games, walking around the park, running, music, being around other people and even have been to the mental hospital. Nothing that I’ve been doing has been doing any good at all for me, and the thoughts about suicide run through my mind every second of the day and I’m scared that one time I’m gonna listen to it and hurt the family that I love