I feel trapped, I don’t enjoy the world, I have my moments, Deadpool quote,” life is a series of train wrecks with brief comical breaks of happiness.” I want all of my life to change but I can’t even get a different job to start so that’s very off putting to me anymore. I have hobbies but even my hobbies have been putting me in a funk. I can have a plan or goal to achieve on my hobby for the day and it never happens because with no exaggeration something literally always goes south and it takes longer then it should, so I get pissy and moody. I really don’t know what to do anymore, everyone says start by changing something small in your life, that’s fine, but not enough to help me. The world is trash and most people are trash and I’m supposed to somehow enjoy life as a happy panda and ignore all the shit constantly going on? I have stopped smoking weed and do a IR Sauna, so those are some small things I accomplished but god I’m no where close to enjoying life or being happy. I try to enjoy the moments and little things, not good at it. I don’t feel I’m anywhere close to we’re I thought I’d be at this point in my life…. Your young it’s fine… well it’s not fine, I’m sick of it.