I have a lot of bad thoughts, I hate thinking them, but I can't seem to stop, they are the kind of thoughts I wish I could share with the people around me.

But everyrime I try and share, and ask for help, I'm either being told I'm too negative, or feel somewhat ignored, whenever I manage to get someone to actually listen, I talk myself out of it. The thoughts just tell me that I'm wasting their time, and that they don't really care.

It becomes so bad that I tend to end up leaving my friend groups because I just feel like a problem to them, and the few I have left I don't want to continue to bother.

The worst thing is, it usually starts with a good thought, I'm rather creative so, small things in storytelling interest me, but I know not everyone is as interested in that as me, and thinking that causes a lot of the worse thoughts to come back up.

(I'm sorry if I'm breaking any rules with this, this is my first time posting on this subreddit, and on this account)