Before I say anything im definitely going to get myself referred for evaluation on this. It's a strange one because of another component. Im an alcoholic. I guess ill just run through the story quickly. I was hospitalised in January due to withdrawal trying to quit and it was quite traumatic. I spent five days there in sheer panic and anxiety but I was safe. When I was released this us were things started to get a little, off. Before bed. I would start doing things in threes. Pull the handle of my door to make sure it was locked three times, rubbed my Witcher medallion I have over my mirror three times, then for some reason lightly tapped my chest three times. And I would pull on my e-cig three times during the day, other times not. It always thought of it as good luck. I did this for about two-three months until one night I thought why the fuck am I doing this? And it stopped, I stopped thinking about it. And that was that. Until I started drinking again and had withdrawal (not as bad, cut the relapse short). Now im three weeks sober, this night time ritual of threes is happening again like the last time. Also, this threes thing never happened before the start of this year and I've not always been an alcoholic so I have no clue where it came from. And it's only this night time thing and my e-cig that I can think of so it doesn't really interfere in my life. But it does worry me.

Other information I guess is that I like things neat. But it doesn't bother me too much if it's not. Mildly sometimes. It's more stuff I can see. If it's in a drawer if it's packed away folded that's enough. Shut and done. But stuff on my cabinet is quite neat and lined up. Id probably move stuff it it weren't but this would literally be maybe five minutes tops a day. You wouldn't look at my room and think this guy's got OCD, you'd probably just think he's tidy. Im not overly clean (I am hygienic though like my room or me doesn't stink hah) but neat. If that makes sense.

So yeah, what do you guys think?