To the person who read this, It's been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don't see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to lose ourselves, and the way you have it is so unimaginably painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss how you accepted how you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn't think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws, and we all aren't perfect. It's painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain through your eyes, but, stranger, I do. I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don't know how much impact you have in this world, and it's sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make a change, it's something so simple and little that brightens up someone's whole world; it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you're passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it's been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you're here, existing, but I don't want you to exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It's heartbreaking that you think you're not capable of being loved because you are, I love you through all my words, and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe your heart had been broken once, and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself; does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself; it's not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You're not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to; you deserve someone to listen. I am listening; you can tell me what's wrong. It's everything. Something is pulling your heartstrings on the ground, and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel; it's heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can't hug you; that's why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally, but I care about you so much; I write this because I hope you could stay here with me. Would you please hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me? After all, I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid; you didn't give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn't give up when you tried to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can't you now? I know it's tiring, your mentally tired, but don't your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope; look back on those dreams. Don't let yourself fall; you deserve better. We will both fight; I will fight for you. I won't let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me; I won't let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that someone is looking right back; maybe we can't see each other, but I can feel your presence here with me, and that's enough for me because I am glad your heart is beating and you're still fighting. You're so much stronger, thank you think, you didn't leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn't feel like it when you don't feel like belonging, then build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone; you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you're one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because your heart is beautiful, that's why the demons in your mind want to have it. As one of the stars, you see other stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in their life, but they lighten up the universe with each other's presence. You're a star for me, maybe you don't see it yourself, but I can see it; you're beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this; you make me feel something in your presence, and when you can make me feel that way, you also make other people feel that way about you. I hope you stay for yourself and don't let your story get written by others, but by yourself; it's your story, not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of "I hope" because I have hope for you even if you don't have it for yourself; I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That's why I hope you won't see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again; I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow, you will think about my words. If someone left you, don't blame yourself, don't think you weren't enough, don't lower yourself for someone who couldn't see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone, I am so sorry for your loss; they want you happy; I hope you don't feel guilty or regret because you were there, spend enough time with them, and want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart, I am so sorry that they couldn't see how you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you doesn't know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they are :). If you aren't accepted at home or in general, then I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn't be ashamed of; I accept you and support you; I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You're safe here with me :). You're not useless; you're not a burden to anyone. You're not a problem, you're human, and your feelings are valid. You're not dramatic. Please don't starve yourself; you deserve food and to drink; I know it's hard. It hurts to see that you're in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don't let your emotions control you. Don't let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one notices; I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you're reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you're reading this, and it's enough for me to be proud of you because you're here, and that's all that matters to me. If it's a night for you, go to sleep, I know it's hard to fall asleep right now, but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don't let them fight you. If it's a day for you, don't start it with such sad music; I know it's impossible to have a good day with such a mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water every day in the morning so on. You will start building little healthy habits. If it's an evening for you, you're probably overwhelmed and stressed; I want you to know it's okay to feel the way you feel. You don't need to be scared; of course, you're overwhelmed or stressed; I mean, who wouldn't? But it's important to know that you should do a little self-care when you feel that way, such as taking a bath, for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between, I hope you know that you're so strong for breathing despite the pain; I know you will make it :) I believe in you. I want you to stay here; I mean all my words, even if there are many unsaid things I want to tell you, and my text is getting longer and longer, I want you here.

I hope your smile will become genuine one day where you don't need to fake it anymore because I can't say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You're worth more than every fucking cent in this world.

You can let go for today; I got you; you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don't let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not a weakness. If you still feel alone, I dedicate you to a song as your friend. "Coldplay - Yellow" I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words; I will for sure think of you.

If no one told you and you're unsure yourself, you're a good person, and I am so happy you're here.

I hope this is enough to stay today; tomorrow will be a new day, a fresh start; let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay?

Life for those who couldn't smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there's no other, hug-like it's your last one.

If you read all of it, until tomorrow, my friend :) have a good day and a great year.

I love you so much and am so proud of you; I hope you will remember my words- Wes, the stranger that cares more about you than anything. :)