During the quarantine, I had lots of time on my hand, so most of the time, there were sudden glimpses of my memories. Some were Happy but most were of how everything in my life went down hill. Everything started back in 2018, there was this cute girl in Physics Class. I had a huge crush on her. Fast forward a couple of months, we became friends, and I was about to ask her out but then I saw her with another guy and they were making out. Now after 3 years I don't have any feelings for her anymore but during these 3 years I got addicted to porn & hentai. I cut myself off from my friends and family thinking that I don't deserve them. And I have the wrong idea of a relationship. Due to the excessive hours I spent on watching porn and hentai. I have these idea that all women are sluts and the ones that are in a relationship are going to cheat on their respective partners. The same thoughts pops up for men and other genders as well. I know its WRONG & DISGUSTING. I have been trying to become a better man. I keep on failing and this makes me feel hopless. I don't know what to do to make this better. I feel lost and depressed. I miss laughing for no reason. I miss the old me. I need help but I am too shy to ask for it. I wanna have fun like everyone but I just can't. So I am taking the first step..... Please help me, I am tired of crying myself to sleep. I wanna be free from all these. I need someone/anyone to help me. Any advice will do...