I’ve been diagnosed with depression with psychotic features and paranoia. I do regularly use drugs as a form of escapism(yes I know it’s unhealthy). For the most part my depression manifests as more apathetic than sad if that makes sense and my “form” of psychosis is auditory hallucinations/illusions. The voices don’t really bother me too much because it’s mostly muffled conversations I can never hear correctly and I also hear faint melodies which in all honesty can be pleasant. I do have moments however where my depression decides to take pre-workout and really hits hard. It actually almost has a physical effect to it when it really dips and it’s and it’s an uncomfortable decent into despair. I wouldn’t say I’m suicidal but the intrusive ideations hit hard. It’s bad enough that even low has no euphoric effects. It passes after a few hours and I’m back to my normal depression anyone else deal with this?