Late at night and on mobile..excuse typos

Usually I've been pretty extroverted, calm, patient, confident and generally pretty unshakable, but recently that's done a full 180 I'm now: Constantly second guessing myself Overthinking Stressing Unable to sleep Mood swings from happy-sad-really pissed off and back for no reason sometimes within minutes And tbh just totally drained

Also recently been feeling lonely/like an outsider at rugby where before I was in the middle and "one of the boys" now I feel like the new guy again even though ots the same guys I've been playing with for years Whats making it worse is the guilt, some people are completely alone right now and here I am surrounded by 30 other people getting physical activity and social interaction rolled into one...2 major thing the brain needs to make it's happy chemicals apparently.. And yet it just .....isn't

It's really getting to me because up untill about a month ago I was always laid back, nothing bothered me and od bounce back better than ever but now I'm crushed by hypotheticals and what ifs wjere as before I used to just roll with whatever

Hope this makes sense...I probably.ought to try sleeping