These past few nights I’ve been encountering the same dream. I’d be in a car with someone close, and we’d drive by this house. The house would be open for some reason and you could see everything inside. I’d look out the window and my eyes would focus on this one picture frame among chaotic furniture (I’ve tried to see if I could get a clearer look at it to no avail). I’d almost instantly have an overwhelming sense of anxiety take me over and knock the wind out of me. I’d be gasping for air and on the verge of tears (I struggle with showing my emotions and I haven’t cried for several years so that’s probably why I never end up crying in the dream). My heart would be ready to pop out of my chest and I’d feel nauseous and as if I was slowly being crushed. The person next to me would be very confused and ask what the heck was going on and would try to help, but I’d be unable to explain as the emotions would get stronger. The dream would cut off from there.

What I realized today as I woke up from the dream/nightmare was that the person next to me could possibly symbolize my fear of being weak in front of those I’m close to. Aside from that, I can’t figure out what the other parts dream could mean. A tiny bit of history- I’ve had depression for a few years (seems to be much better these days), I have anxiety and I’ve struggled with panic attacks and anxiety attacks in the past. I’ve also had suicidal thoughts and I had self destructive behaviors (no cutting) but not with the intent of death.

Idk if this is the right sub to ask about this but I figured why not give it a shot?