I've honestly started to feel like my mental health has just become an added burden on those I thought were close enough to me to not make me feel this way perhaps... However here I am, and I can honestly say for the past few weeks I haven't feel this lost or lonely is quite while. Crazy thing is (fingers crossed) I'll be getting married in a few weeks and so being so involved in prep and just all that overwhelming stress to deal with, like I don't think I should be feeling this way, however being in a high stress situation hasn't been good for me at all especially when I can't exactly take time away for myself. Now when I try to share my stress I'm practically adding it to others and being made aware of it (rightfully so), but that's just instilled this increased amount of guilt with me. Going from someone who bottled up to someone who opened up my can of worms, I honestly feel like atleast when I bottled , it didn't affect anyone. It was fine. I may have not been, but everyone else was. I never felt like I was stepping on toes now here I am wanting to speak and even if I do, instantly regretting opening my mouth. I'm not too sure what to do about this feeling but with so much going on internally im having a huge issue in terms of processing my emotions (am I being selfish by saying my emotions?) This has also caused an extreme feeling of relapsing physically and mentally, between lack of sleep and certain habits I thought I had overcome over the past few years ... Just want to feel like actually better without worrying so much.