Idk k so being at home just hasn't been good for me at all. Not that anything of mine is necessarily important but I do have alot of bottled up stress being released through panic episodes. Also, it's making me react poorly to minor situations but it isn't helping when people I'm closest to consider my reactions stupid. It's like why can I not just be quiet. I should be speaking but then I'm bottling and cycle continues.and I have no way of explaining myself to the two of them where I feel 100% understood. Like they're their for me more than anyone and I can't express my gratitude enough but still like I cannot explain myself where they won't think I'm being stupid, or ridiculous. And I mean I get to some extent I might be but it's like not necessarily "me" reacting in the moment? Sorry I'm just really unsettled and jittery right now and needed to let this out.