24f battling chronic depression and anxiety/panic disorder for 5 years. I've tried several medications, therapy, lifestyle changes and went off my meds last July to try a more holistic approach because I felt so awful on the medication.

It's getting very bad again. And I am considering admitting myself. I wanted to hear others experiences voluntarily admitting yourself to the hospital and if it helped you or not.

My thinking is, I think about killing myself every day. And I can't get into a psychiatrist for 3 weeks, I went to urgent Care and they dismissed me with sleeping pills and told me to exercise more.

I feel like the only way I can get help is to admit myself and hope they can help me. I'm just scared I'm not in the right headspace to be my own advocate and that's dangerous because they could just throw pills at me without actually listening to what's worked and what hasn't or being around addicts and people with more severe mental illness will not be helpful.

I just would like to hear others experiences in hospital inpatient programs in the US.

I didn't include a lot of detail and am lacking information because of where my head is at so please don't make judgments based solely on the information I'm sharing with you. It's just all I can get out and wanted to give a breif idea of what I'm going through.