So a little history, im 16, and am fairly antisocial in real life. Online, im perfectly fine, but struggle to want to socialize with people in real life due to severe anxiety. Im trans as well. I frequently research psychology topics, and love to peruse forums and subreddits such as this, because i want to become a therapist or clinical psychology as an adult and am deeply interested in this field. When i see or hear about someone else's mental illness i get this gut wrenching feeling of guilt in my chest, and start researching it. Once i have done this casually or mildly obsessively, i start to believe that i have it, and start designing situations to prove this correct. I will go so far as to become almost obsessed with anxiety for example, until it becomes a tangible and very real thing. I dont want to become chronically depressed, and feel that im moving towards this, and worry that my gender dysphoria is just a symptom of this. Does anyone have similar experiences or have any insight in to how i can stop this?