For context im 21, have a job and a partner, my family complain at every little thing i do, i dont have the energy to clean my room until its spotless like they expect, i still clean it sometimes tho its just picking up clothes, i rarely dust or make my bed.

I argue with family often and recent had a fight with my mother and sister where i ended up with a scratched face and my sister kicked my shin 4 times and made me bleed that was a fun christmas day.

My partner says she cares about me but regularly seems to forget what ive said or does something really lazy that makes me consider if she is right for me, as the only good part seems to be the intercourse.

I am autistic always struggled with anger issues and the past few months it feels like its gotten worse, i take hours to get out of bed because i dont want to face the day, gotten to a point where when im working at 7 in the morning im waking up at 3am so i can get there on time. It feels like im surrounded by toxic people and dont know how to distance myself from all of them, im saving money up for a house but that could take atleast 4years, im barely scraping by with the money they take off me each month and what im trying to save but always ask me to lend them money and i do so in fear they’ll get mad (thats my mother and partner) they do usually pay me back atleast but it can take weeks or months so its pretty so mentally its a difficult stretch of time.

Regularly i drink, every day always atleast 4 cans of 8.4% cider, when family or my partner find out they get verbally aggressive and complain as to why im drinking, i even got screamed at for weed a few weeks ago despite being a one off and the first time i had touched it in 2-3years.

I just dont know what to anymore as it feels like no matter what i do im not good enough, i work 180-214hours im told i work to much and my partner complains i barely see her and my family complain that i get home too late, i do 120hours in a month, family get mad that im sat at on my xbox too much or going out too often to see my partner.

Its just getting too much, it feels like i should drop one, if i drop my partner and in turn spend less time with her my family have less to complain about, the other option is get an apartment, have my partner live with me and forget my family.