I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2022, I always had my high and lows but there’s always that period for me where I’m so low I just hate myself and everything I do, I look at myself and cry. I’m young and beautiful but why do I feel like I’m still not ok. I’ve been on medication but I think I need to switch it up cause to be honest I still feel as miserable as I felt growing up, I’m 21 now and have been depressed since I was 12 years old. It feels like a never ending struggle. I’m tired. I just want to feel okay with myself. But I can’t. I’m hurting every day and still feel like a burden. I’ll be okay and joyful some weeks then it’s terrible after that and I’m just jumping back and forth from feeling okay and not. I hate it I’m tired I want to sleep and not wake up anymore.