I have never had any relationship so far in life of 24 years, mainly due to my shortcomings, including lack of ability to understand body language/ social cues, social anxiety among others. And thus also never had intimacy with anyone. I was mostly fine so far, just living with a hope maybe I will find someone. But lately for some reason I have been feeling too much longing for being in love with someone, being together with someone, etc. This is to the point that I involuntarily feel anger whenever I see any other couples happily walking around, especially towards women. Like I don't hate other couples or women or anything at a principle level but my brain just creates that anger without my control. Like I know that's not me. Many times even mentioning the acts of romance, intimacy leads to a spark of anger in my brain. I am not sure why this is happening and don't want it to happen. That is not who I am as a person. It's some "incel" kind of behaviour. I know I am alone due to the fault of my know and not others. What can I do to keep such thoughts away and stop my brain behaving this way?