This is gonna be a little long sorry in advance to anyone who reads this, but thank you for at least giving me some of your time even if you don’t read it all.

So for some background I’m 20 and I live with only my mother, I want to move out but with my current situation I can’t make anymore than $300-400 a paycheck. This has caused much division with my mom and me because she’s going into debt and I’m not helping as much as I wish I could. Recently after a fight we agreed I’d have to pay rent to live here and while I find it reasonable I’m gonna have to sell all of my possessions and stop jiu jitsu classes to pay for it.

Now I can’t help feel but like homelessness is right around the corner because I’m losing money even if I sell everything I own. I can’t take a second job either because I had to sell my car and I live in a very degree heavy area so I’m lucky I even have the job I do now.

In addition I feel like my body is failing me slowly and both me and my mom are too poor to go to the dentist or doctor. I just feel like im one more day away from a heart attack or my gums becoming necrotic. I’m medically underweight and have issues eating/keeping food down and it’s just adding to my mental stress.

I just don’t know what to do anymore everything feels like a dead end or a lost cause, I’m just lost and I’m worried I’m gonna end up either taking my own life out of desperation or go homeless and probably either get arrested or die considering my area.

If anybody can give me any advice or help that would be much appreciated. I’m sorry if this is formatted poorly and sounds kinda like I’m ranting im writing on my phone while crying so I hope you could at least make sense of it.