I recently just dropped out of my freshman year of college, my place of work just got shut down and all my friends are off at different schools. I was able to be alone with my parents during the first half of high school so why can’t I handle the weight on me right now. For the last month I break down almost every day thinking about finally doing it. I hinted it to my sister and she broke down calling my parents and it ruined me. But I can’t shake this idea and the thought that this selfish act will free me from this hell. I get more and more worried about being alone because I want to resort to alcohol and weed and can’t hold myself back for much longer.