So I've been having thoughts of wanting it to end I've acted before in my past with strong intent I suppose fortunately I'm still here on one hand I struggle with alot being in college working a job and I also struggle with finding a girl to me it's kinda rough cause I've always wanted children and I'm at the age where all my friends married with them... it sucks I have hopes and dreams of becoming a emt but I don't want my deppression to get in the way but I'm scared it will get bad enough to where I'd want to act again alot of this stems from loneliness my family isn't very loving or supportive. this girl at my work is playing games it's very mind numbing all it does is reminds me of the shitty parts of being a loner i guess im.posting this to see if anyone has any suggestions on what to do I feel totally lost and honestly don't really know what to do either