I always feel like I'm inconveniencing someone, or doing something that will be frowned upon. Like I live with my family, and I feel compelled to be very private about any of my pursuits in life. I share with them basic stuff like that I'm playing a videogame or something. But I feel uncomfortable talking to them about my friends, about my creative interests, and also my more practical pursuits. I just feel compelled to be very private, because I feel I'll be frowned-upon.

But my parents are super cool, and non-judgmental, so I don't get it. My brother used to bully me as a kid, but that was a long time ago, and could this issue really be due to that? I also feel similar about the real world, like I feel like I'd be a total screw-up, so I may as well not even bother to try.

Is there any help you guys can give me? I feel like I live at rock bottom, and I'm just tired of living like this. I feel like I just want to give up on life and stop caring about anything.