Just found out my little brother who has had sex countless time already is having sex behind my back after smoking my weed, not telling me beforehand, when we have discussed this already (its a temporary situation, I am a virgin and am supposed to go to an escort soon) but he doesn't care. Not too close with my older bro, even though we have a mutual relationship. So much fucked up shit from parents that definitely am alone on that one, even though they appear to try and help. Are there actually no good people left? I know I simply don't consciously do things that hurt people. I have no one, and it is hard to care when your whole environment appears to be lying or hiding things from you. No one has your back and you feel like you are on survival mode instead of being supported like a normal child. I beg for your understanding compassion and support in everyway. I want to cry. No one respects my boundaries and understands me, and belittle me for my anxiety instead of supporting me. I really start feeling like its a cruel world out there. Is there anyone out there that is just loving and respectful and just wants to be a good friend? Like what the hell is this shit. My whole heart goes out to anyone in similar situations. I love you, and I wish we will be united someday, because this bullshit is a huge burden upon our souls.