It felt good to at least get it set. I haven't taken care of myself at all as an adult. I've only ever gone to the doctors if I'm seriously ill or something is broken. So now I've had a physical, gotten blood work done, been checked for everything, gotten updated vaccines (tetanus), and it's kinda lifting me just a little bit. I still need to make a dentist appointment (it's been 20 years) but the closest dentist from where I live is an hour away (that takes my insurance). I need to get on that tomorrow.

I'm really nervous to meet this therapist. I'm afraid I won't be able to open up. I'm afraid I'm going to try to come up with excuses for some of my past actions, or fudge facts. And I know I need to be completely honest to get the help I need.

A major downside: because I'm always traveling for my job, telehealth appointments aren't covered if I'm out of state. I've got to try, but I don't know if I can swing that. If it's once a week then that's $600 per month.