I was the only one in my family that was 'planned' but i somehow the most broken one, i was diagnosed with ADHD when i was young and then i slowly developed Epilepsy, i may have been SA'd as a kid but i dont remember anything clearly, i may also have autism, i have dont nothing with my life and i am now 26 and overthinking every single thing that happens to my body, i dropped out of high school but im trying to get back on track while all of this is happening i fear that my life is being cut short by ilness, i fear that i am just slowly dying when in reality i have no idea what is going on, i feel myself close to the edge but i wont let myself fall, i cant ask for help, i wont allow myself to get help, i cant breathe anymore and i am in tremendous pain 24/7