I don't have any friends. My only friend/partner is in another country on vacation. I have my single mom, but I constantly have to help her and I feel exhausted even though I did nothing today. I haven't been able to sleep because the bugs in the house and no A/C because we can't afford it. I just feel like a failure. I wish my mother aborted me it could have been so easy too because my birth. I just hate being here. I've been having muscle spasms because of stress. I probably will nap I just don't understand why is committing suicide bad if u don't fit in with the system . Idk in my opinion people who are suffering should be allowed to end it.