I was diagnosed with bipolar schizophrenia at 14. I went off my meds at 19 gradually so psych permission did keto then carnivore then periodic prolonged fasting till my mom called the hospital on me at 21. I then later went to a residential where I live now. Im overweight and medicated. I used to want to make a farm/rage room so people would feel less bad about animal slaughter bc I thought carnivore was the ultimate human diet that it could cure type two diabetes and auto immune disorders. At my residential we have no control over our food unless you sign up for 1 salad or fruit plate a day. My voices are making me feel guilty for eating meat. I also follow this vegan farm that's called The Gentle Barn which is sanctuary farm for animals. I never went to college and I have social security. It's my dream to go to Japan but I also want to opens sanctuary farm there but I'm willing to give up the farm dream for living in Japan. I most likely won't ever live there bc my social security wouldn't transfer and I have no job. I could probably visit though. Anyways, any tips for me to live healthier and get better? My main hobbies are embroidery, learning Japanese and I occasionally do digital art but I'm not the best yet. Art really helps me. I wanted to be a vendor at a craft fair but i honestly think they don't want me there and I need more products. Im gonna try to open an Etsy shop though. I also can only workout once a week bc I get sore for like five days after. I also like handlettering, watercolor and origami but I'm not good at it. I used to go to art school after school at a non-profit. My parents to get me to comply with social security told me I should use my time to work on my art. But I don't know if I'll ever be a good artist. It does help. Im gonna try music and reading also. I live in Chicago and there's open pianos you can practice at the library. I also was told I should try learning to code. I wanted to make a game to make money but my bf told me you should only make games if you have fun not if you want money. I also could make a choose your own adventure comic for money but he told me that I shouldn't do it unless I love it not the profit.