There is a lot of categories I could fit this post under but i feel like venting is more or less the majority of it.

I am M18 from Australia and when I was 15 I was betrayed by a friend in the worse way, he had feelings for me and I don't swing that way (no offence intended to people that do) so I turned him down, 2 weeks later he pinned me and tried to do things that I won't mention here, saved only by the bell, literally, this was done in a class room (during lunch because we had a music assignment together)

After 3 months of acting like it didn't happen, word got out and despite my entire grade supporting me I still dropped out, just shy of 16, thus never actually completing year 10.

Since then i spent 2 years in isolation, I've gained a bit of weight and get extremely anxious about going somewhere public or away from home for more than a day, I tried to go camping with some of my closest friends for a couple of days back in January but only ended up staying one, because I felt homesick and needed to be back home. There's plans for another one for a couple weeks ahead but I don't know whether I should go or not, I don't want to miss out on stuff like this but I also don't want to purposely put myself into these things If I don't know if I'm ready yet. I'm in a rock and a hard place and some advice would be appreciated, and a side question; how have people with SA experiences gone about trying to return to somewhat normality, or at least to the point that you're not scared anymore?